Where to go to lunch is always a challenge. The area I work in doesn't lend itself to great places to eat, and then there are other people there. I don't want to be hit on, talked to or be social. I spend 9 hrs a day on the phone I don't want to talk to you for that hour. Take my order go away and don't come back.
This is what I require for lunch:
1- table
2- electric plug
3- wifi if I can get it
4- something on the menu that is not fried to 9th degree
5- Leave me alone
Yes I know I am very picky and this hit me today as I was playing the what restaurant am I not sick of game in my head as I tried to find somewhere to eat, that I could also finish my paper that is due tonight, that I should have done over the weekend or last night at the latest. But I didn't do it last night I went to bed, so I had to do it today. Now. So... there it is.
I choose not to eat at the break-room at work because of the 4 things they require there are 2 out of 5 and they are not the most important ones. I have many reasons for wanting to do good in my classes and eating at work is not conducive to any of them. Strange that a crowded McDonald's, Wendy's, SBUX etc is a better environment for getting homework done for class.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Wieght loss
After my last consult with both of my doctors and red flags were raised over my current weight, a goal was reached. I don’t think it is unobtainable it will just take some work. Yuck! More work. I currently am at my highest weight ever. Ever… so my doctors are both agreed that it has to come off, I agree of course and we ruled out anything medical that could be causing it, all blood labs are good, normal etc. So the goal is 20 lbs by December 1 of this year.
I am sure there are many things that have caused me to get to this point: age, lifestyle, stress, hormones, and children. I am sure the stress and the lifestyle are the most likely culprits, there are days at work when I do not budge from my desk and there are others when I am running crazy all over. The tension and stress level are very high at our work environment with not a lot being done to resolve it. No one wants to acknowledge the elephant in the room but that is another story for another day. The hormones are probably not as big of a factor as they could be due to the lab work and what their results were. Our lifestyle is hectic with extra busy thrown in, we seem to constantly be on the go and with class two nights a week and preparing dinner in between there is not time to bike, work out etc in between work and class.
June was especially busy for our household as we bought a house and moved and spent most of that month either at baseball, or going to baseball or eating out. That is the biggest culprit of all for us I am sure. Needing to grab something on the go and it is just so darn easy to go and grab a burger and be done with it. Of course then you need a shake to go with it. July was fast paced, it seems like I blinked and then we were getting ready to take kids back to school. Now remember we were on vacation for a week in July but vacation calories do not count, and though we did eat out a lot while in Florida it was not as bad as it could have been.
Before both of the doctor’s appointments I implemented several changes. The daily Starbucks habit had to go, as did the two to three Dr Pepper’s a day and raiding the vending machine at 3 pm when I would absolutely kill someone for sugar or chocolate. At home we are eating dinner together at home, and the boys and I are drinking milk or water with meals. We still keep iced tea on hand but I haven’t been drinking as much of it. Making a conscious effort to eat breakfast is helping I haven’t lost any weight but haven’t’ gained any either, inches are leaving as my clothes fit better than they did before vacation but not a noticeable difference yet.
It should make me feel better that I am not the only one of my buddies that struggles with this, but it does not. I know the lack of motivation when the couch looks so tempting instead of strapping on the Nike's and going around the block. It is too tempting to say oh it looks like rain, snow, sleet, sunshine whatever to avoid getting out there.
The daily food journal has also been implemented and I am trying to go to bed earlier than before, because new studies released recently show that people who get 8-10 hours of sleep at night are better equipped to deal with stress, maintain healthier weight and are generally happier. It is a slow process, I have to force myself to log off the computer and step back. But I am happier than ever we don’t have a TV in the bedroom anymore; removing that temptation also helps me to go to sleep earlier. We will keep you posted. I did not put it on overnight so it won’t come off overnight…
I am sure there are many things that have caused me to get to this point: age, lifestyle, stress, hormones, and children. I am sure the stress and the lifestyle are the most likely culprits, there are days at work when I do not budge from my desk and there are others when I am running crazy all over. The tension and stress level are very high at our work environment with not a lot being done to resolve it. No one wants to acknowledge the elephant in the room but that is another story for another day. The hormones are probably not as big of a factor as they could be due to the lab work and what their results were. Our lifestyle is hectic with extra busy thrown in, we seem to constantly be on the go and with class two nights a week and preparing dinner in between there is not time to bike, work out etc in between work and class.
June was especially busy for our household as we bought a house and moved and spent most of that month either at baseball, or going to baseball or eating out. That is the biggest culprit of all for us I am sure. Needing to grab something on the go and it is just so darn easy to go and grab a burger and be done with it. Of course then you need a shake to go with it. July was fast paced, it seems like I blinked and then we were getting ready to take kids back to school. Now remember we were on vacation for a week in July but vacation calories do not count, and though we did eat out a lot while in Florida it was not as bad as it could have been.
Before both of the doctor’s appointments I implemented several changes. The daily Starbucks habit had to go, as did the two to three Dr Pepper’s a day and raiding the vending machine at 3 pm when I would absolutely kill someone for sugar or chocolate. At home we are eating dinner together at home, and the boys and I are drinking milk or water with meals. We still keep iced tea on hand but I haven’t been drinking as much of it. Making a conscious effort to eat breakfast is helping I haven’t lost any weight but haven’t’ gained any either, inches are leaving as my clothes fit better than they did before vacation but not a noticeable difference yet.
It should make me feel better that I am not the only one of my buddies that struggles with this, but it does not. I know the lack of motivation when the couch looks so tempting instead of strapping on the Nike's and going around the block. It is too tempting to say oh it looks like rain, snow, sleet, sunshine whatever to avoid getting out there.
The daily food journal has also been implemented and I am trying to go to bed earlier than before, because new studies released recently show that people who get 8-10 hours of sleep at night are better equipped to deal with stress, maintain healthier weight and are generally happier. It is a slow process, I have to force myself to log off the computer and step back. But I am happier than ever we don’t have a TV in the bedroom anymore; removing that temptation also helps me to go to sleep earlier. We will keep you posted. I did not put it on overnight so it won’t come off overnight…
Friday, September 10, 2010
Hiatus
I think mine is over, I haven't posted anything- there was too much drama at home, work, and with family that I didn't want to live it much less write about it. I believe the majority of the drama inducing idiots have been kicked to the curb but only time will tell and I am not going to dwell on it anymore.
So- New post has been written but not actually posted yet... Might be something to do with being incredibly busy or it just might be procrastination. I am going with busy... But you can decide for yourself.
So- New post has been written but not actually posted yet... Might be something to do with being incredibly busy or it just might be procrastination. I am going with busy... But you can decide for yourself.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
E-isms from tonight
E and I walked from the house to the park and around the lake and back, took about an hour and it felt good :) Of course we had to battle all of the gnats and mosquitoes but it was well worth it.
1- Ew what is that smell? It smells like crap - My response that is nature to which he replies so it is natural crap?
2- In all my 11 years I cannot believe how far technology has come.
3- Why are girls so difficult? (oh son if you only knew)
4- Let's take our albertson's bag to Walmart and tell them we bought them off of Ebay
5- Well I did want to play on the playground but it is full of little kids
6- And I know I am not supposed to watch Adult Swim but there was this funny show on and let me tell you about it....
And on the way home the most perfect one of all using me as a human shield from the sprinklers and saying hahaha It is awesome to be the youngest! Then gave me a hug and made sure to plaster my wet t shirt to my back. Nice
1- Ew what is that smell? It smells like crap - My response that is nature to which he replies so it is natural crap?
2- In all my 11 years I cannot believe how far technology has come.
3- Why are girls so difficult? (oh son if you only knew)
4- Let's take our albertson's bag to Walmart and tell them we bought them off of Ebay
5- Well I did want to play on the playground but it is full of little kids
6- And I know I am not supposed to watch Adult Swim but there was this funny show on and let me tell you about it....
And on the way home the most perfect one of all using me as a human shield from the sprinklers and saying hahaha It is awesome to be the youngest! Then gave me a hug and made sure to plaster my wet t shirt to my back. Nice
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Joys of owning a home
Apparently I had forgotten the joys of home ownership in the last Nine months while we renting the Money Pit, we have seemingly traded $400 plus electric bills for yard mowing in July when grass is knee high, trying to fit all of our crap into our garage and still find room for honey's cars and last but not least un-childproofing this house to a comfortable level.
The previous owners did a fine job of child proofing - almost too good as we don't have small ones running around and won't likely anytime soon. With my boys being 11 and 15 there is not much need to have the drawer locks on every single drawer and opening in the house. But I do have to wonder why on earth they let the children run rampant through the house? I have scraped (literally) pieces of food off of the back door while attempting to clean the glass, and gone through one box of magic erasers in a vain attempt to take the pint sized Picasso's off of the walls. We plan on painting at some point but not ready to do it as of yet.
We are also having a fine time trying to mix our styles with the existing fixtures in the house and our furniture and decor. With the exception of the grownup living room it is pretty mixed as of right now and there is no flow.
Major projects that are most pressing- the gap under the front door, the back windows, and changing two light fixtures one for ugliness and the other because we broke it on purpose when we moved in. But it probably would have gotten broken on purpose for ugly too. I can't stand bright brass; too much time spent in the lighting business.
Little project are fixing a closet door, completing the switch of the light bulbs from incandescent to CFL and hanging to doors correctly. Really not to bad if you think of it. Of all the homes we previewed before choosing this one this home needed the least amount of work.
Furniture wise I have a few pieces I would love to get- the wicker chest that is going to block off the fireplace in lieu of the TV box that is blocking it now from the fuzzies playing in it. And my Papasan chair that will go in the grown up living room next to the bar. Then once that is done I can add the curtains, and recover the ottoman, dining room chairs, and the window seat.
However the greatest thing of all is thus- This home is ours and not a rental and that makes it all the more fun :)
The previous owners did a fine job of child proofing - almost too good as we don't have small ones running around and won't likely anytime soon. With my boys being 11 and 15 there is not much need to have the drawer locks on every single drawer and opening in the house. But I do have to wonder why on earth they let the children run rampant through the house? I have scraped (literally) pieces of food off of the back door while attempting to clean the glass, and gone through one box of magic erasers in a vain attempt to take the pint sized Picasso's off of the walls. We plan on painting at some point but not ready to do it as of yet.
We are also having a fine time trying to mix our styles with the existing fixtures in the house and our furniture and decor. With the exception of the grownup living room it is pretty mixed as of right now and there is no flow.
Major projects that are most pressing- the gap under the front door, the back windows, and changing two light fixtures one for ugliness and the other because we broke it on purpose when we moved in. But it probably would have gotten broken on purpose for ugly too. I can't stand bright brass; too much time spent in the lighting business.
Little project are fixing a closet door, completing the switch of the light bulbs from incandescent to CFL and hanging to doors correctly. Really not to bad if you think of it. Of all the homes we previewed before choosing this one this home needed the least amount of work.
Furniture wise I have a few pieces I would love to get- the wicker chest that is going to block off the fireplace in lieu of the TV box that is blocking it now from the fuzzies playing in it. And my Papasan chair that will go in the grown up living room next to the bar. Then once that is done I can add the curtains, and recover the ottoman, dining room chairs, and the window seat.
However the greatest thing of all is thus- This home is ours and not a rental and that makes it all the more fun :)
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Disjointed thoughts
Not a conscious subject this time- a word to the wise to those who do not read what I write - which is just as well as I write for myself more than anything else.
Why do my boys insist on fighting over anything and everything and at their ages I still have to consistently intervene, which for that matter why am I always the referrer? Why does my son insist on jacking with the radio as soon as we get in the car? Why do they make things as difficult as possible? Why do I eat when I am happy, sad, anxious, mad, bored etc? It is no wonder I have put on the weight I have in the past few years- it is not for any certain reason it is just there...
Why oh why do people insist they want to work and then look at you in aversion when you tell them to do their job as you tired of doing it for them? and why cant' supervisors follow through with actions when they say they are going to?
Why do I feel the need to get my household in order by any means necessary including cutting off all ties from friends and family and isolating us to where there are no outside influences in our bubble to fix what ever is wrong with my child that makes him so combative?
Why must certain people call you and then lie to you? Why is there such a thing as dead beat dads? Why does the Child Support system consistently fail?
Why is there never enough time in the day? And why am I on here when I should be doing any number of things including studying for the test on Saturday that I am going to bomb... Why are there letters AND numbers in Math? English I am great, I might not write fantastically but since this is freehand (typing) and I am really the only one who reads it - what does it matter???
Why do your best friends in the world have the power to hurt and maim more than anyone else and not realize they do it? And why has the most rousing game of phone tag been playing since Monday ? So far I am winning by the way!
Why do people feel the need to pass judgment when they don't walk in your shoes and deal with everything on a daily basis, they only see a snapshot and then make decisions off of that ?
Why do I always have to be the one in charge? Why do I have to make all the hard decisions? I don't want to be the mediator, the peace maker and the one to blame when it all goes South quickly?
And why oh why do the people who are supposed to love you unconditionally not ever love you unconditionally? Why must there always be strings, terms, conditions, and if you F it all up the devil to pay later, I want a do over...
Why do my boys insist on fighting over anything and everything and at their ages I still have to consistently intervene, which for that matter why am I always the referrer? Why does my son insist on jacking with the radio as soon as we get in the car? Why do they make things as difficult as possible? Why do I eat when I am happy, sad, anxious, mad, bored etc? It is no wonder I have put on the weight I have in the past few years- it is not for any certain reason it is just there...
Why oh why do people insist they want to work and then look at you in aversion when you tell them to do their job as you tired of doing it for them? and why cant' supervisors follow through with actions when they say they are going to?
Why do I feel the need to get my household in order by any means necessary including cutting off all ties from friends and family and isolating us to where there are no outside influences in our bubble to fix what ever is wrong with my child that makes him so combative?
Why must certain people call you and then lie to you? Why is there such a thing as dead beat dads? Why does the Child Support system consistently fail?
Why is there never enough time in the day? And why am I on here when I should be doing any number of things including studying for the test on Saturday that I am going to bomb... Why are there letters AND numbers in Math? English I am great, I might not write fantastically but since this is freehand (typing) and I am really the only one who reads it - what does it matter???
Why do your best friends in the world have the power to hurt and maim more than anyone else and not realize they do it? And why has the most rousing game of phone tag been playing since Monday ? So far I am winning by the way!
Why do people feel the need to pass judgment when they don't walk in your shoes and deal with everything on a daily basis, they only see a snapshot and then make decisions off of that ?
Why do I always have to be the one in charge? Why do I have to make all the hard decisions? I don't want to be the mediator, the peace maker and the one to blame when it all goes South quickly?
And why oh why do the people who are supposed to love you unconditionally not ever love you unconditionally? Why must there always be strings, terms, conditions, and if you F it all up the devil to pay later, I want a do over...
Saturday, May 8, 2010
School's Out
It finally hit me- this is my baby's last year of Elementary School and Blake is going to be in High School next year - Holy crap!
This year has been a revelation for us with school- First of all Elijah's teachers have finally realized that he is BORED! Yes he is that is why he acts up and is loud etc, so instead of getting himself into trouble he landed in the PACE program, which is our Gifted and Talented. How he managed this I don't know- he didn't get it from me and if he got it from the dark side I am impressed. The biggest problem we have had is keeping him from reading during other classes- that is such an improvement! and He loves his art teacher! She is amazing and really channels his energy in that class and thinks the world of him! With all of that said I have an incredible connection with his teachers and I am really going to miss them next year when his teachers only have him for an 1 hr and then he goes to someone else- I worry it is so easy to get lost in the shuffle.
Blake has had his struggles this year most of it is being a 15 yr old boy, that is too be expected, but he seems to honestly be getting it now. Next year will be a challenge for him as it will be a new school and new friends and learning his teachers all over again but I am confident that he will pull it off. He is still active in choir and art and will be working on his pin-striping this summer with the kit Dad got him for his birthday.
So... we are going to be busy this summer, first the move to the new house, then Blake will be working most of the summer for his Aunt and for his grandfather, Elijah will be going to a friends house so that he is kept busy and not eating Cheetos playing x box all summer, and then we gear up for next year...
This year has been a revelation for us with school- First of all Elijah's teachers have finally realized that he is BORED! Yes he is that is why he acts up and is loud etc, so instead of getting himself into trouble he landed in the PACE program, which is our Gifted and Talented. How he managed this I don't know- he didn't get it from me and if he got it from the dark side I am impressed. The biggest problem we have had is keeping him from reading during other classes- that is such an improvement! and He loves his art teacher! She is amazing and really channels his energy in that class and thinks the world of him! With all of that said I have an incredible connection with his teachers and I am really going to miss them next year when his teachers only have him for an 1 hr and then he goes to someone else- I worry it is so easy to get lost in the shuffle.
Blake has had his struggles this year most of it is being a 15 yr old boy, that is too be expected, but he seems to honestly be getting it now. Next year will be a challenge for him as it will be a new school and new friends and learning his teachers all over again but I am confident that he will pull it off. He is still active in choir and art and will be working on his pin-striping this summer with the kit Dad got him for his birthday.
So... we are going to be busy this summer, first the move to the new house, then Blake will be working most of the summer for his Aunt and for his grandfather, Elijah will be going to a friends house so that he is kept busy and not eating Cheetos playing x box all summer, and then we gear up for next year...
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